Skipped sch again. Standard tat I skipped sch once every week. My muscle cramps like hell luh, coz I didnt do my stretching properly ytd. I skipped sch but I went for dance. Contridicting? haas. But I dun hv a choice they will kicked mi out if I did. =\ HELL. Tok wif Benjamin ytd. I asked him if I were to be a LADY of of the sudden how will he feel. "FAKE" lol. Dat's wad he said. Fake. Tink tat I am happier being myself. I cant zip my mouth and I cant live w/o crapping and toking cork. So tat is basically the way I am. Love Mi For Who I Am, Hate Mi For All I Care`` I hv my own philosophy thou. Mani ppl love mi the way I am so I guess I dun realli hv a need to change, all I nid to do is to noe when the hell am I supposed to behave. Picked up some new dance steps today. Dat was dope. Haas. Told baby tat I am gonna teach him the steps sp tat we can dance tgt and hv fun. Seriously I think tat baby is a gd dancer luh. Vice versa, I am so bad in dancing. Always trying to recall the steps and ended up being stiff and slow. No groove at all. Haiis. But nvm, I wun give up easily, I'll learn. Sometimes, I think at I am a failure. Just cant seems to do aniting rite and well. Be it studies, dancing, singing, cooking, ai yahh.. wadeva shit I always can do it on the surface but aint a PRO in aniwae. Sianx. But I am very contented coz I gt mani ppl who cares for mi and there are always there for mi whenever I am dwn. Ppl like Vicky, Benjamin, Kelly and Claire. Haha. Thks dudes, realli love ur luh. My mum said tat I look mre n mre like a skeleton. Hmm, I dunno y I cant get fat. I did took my meals but my fats just seems to gather at the wrg place for instance, my tummy. I get abit random at times, so pardon mi if I jump stories fm 1 place to another. Didnt see baby for a few days. Miss him lots lah. It is time for mi to be dependent. My greatest worry now is tat we will quarrel alot due to lack of time to meet. Hope this wun happen. *PRAY HARD* Aight ppls, gotta bathe and slp now. I am so sticky. Tell ya a secret I dint bathe since I came back fm dance =X BYE!! I GO BATHE NOW_____`` * runs*

2 mre days to our 5th mth..ilu*

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